What do your shorts say about you? That you're a big old hypocrite.

I would just like to take a minute to thank whatever gods can hear me that we judge each other by appearance, rather than something more superficial...

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hmmm.
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Today as I walked from the tattoo shop in my super cool pink tattoo shorts (they exist only to give my artist access to my thighs) I was approached by a gentleman (cough-cough-ahem) in a hard hat who hit on me and insulted me all in the same interaction-quite a feat, really.

apparently Mr. construction worker man has a hard time accepting a "no thanks" response to his super-smooth "hey, does your boyfriend let you go out like that? Let me take you out!" B.S.

or maybe saying "no thanks" really does make me a "stuck up whore"... don't know.

Of course, as I was driving away I realized that I could have been being passing judgment based solely on appearance, just like him... I mean, he thought I was a whore based on my hooker-like shorts, and I thought he was a douche based on his dirty wife beater and hard hat with a sticker of the confederate flag on the back. OH THE HYPOCRISY!!!

MAYBE by prejudging him I responded to his "request" in a manner that prompted him to act like a bastard. MAYBE if I had said, "sure, mister, I'd love to let you take me out!!!" We would have ended up getting married and having 100 babies. Now I'll never know.

.dammit.

Whaaahhhhhhh

“Sara, you’re a hard read”, he says. A hard read? Really? Golly mister, maybe you’re expecting too much.

I’ve heard varying forms of this before, you know, accusatory, damning, begging for an end to the ambiguity. I have been directly labeled
selfish,
confusing,
cold…

Maybe it’s something I should work on; being more straight forward…

Truth is,
Sometimes I really don’t care that much one way or the other and I think that is really hard for some people to understand.

BUT I REALLY.DON’T.CARE.

Of course there are people in this world for whom I feel strongly one way or another—there are probably about four. But I’m not taking any applications for new friends or partners or whatever right now-I don’t have time and I’m not too worried about it.

Am I a “hard read” if I am honest and say “it really doesn’t matter” (of course I want to say “you really don’t matter to me”--but I'm nice)? I’d say that’s pretty damn clear. The functional error appears to be in the reception of the message, rather than the delivery.

People are awesome (and I wonder if I really mean that) but so many present with a lot of BS that I just don’t want to wade through at this point. Being truthful or clear or “easily read” doesn’t mean telling some whining-loser-jackass who I let entertain me once in a while exactly what he wants to hear does it? It’s not my role to buffer some emotionally vaginal, validation seeking crybaby from reality, is it?

I don’t care.